i have a theory that relates to my infertility. it goes a little something like this...
i am convinced that past trauma coupled with my current work with victims of sexual assault creates the most hostile womb in the world for anything male. I think that when the doctors inseminate me with sperm, my body goes into attack mode and kills them all.
“put on your pink helmets, girls…. There is a whole school of perpetrators swimming this way!!! Kill them!!!”.
it sounds silly… but after 9 inseminations, I cant think of any other reason.